Today, again, I focus on the journey, not the destination, and do not despair. There is light at the end of the tunnel. There is water at the end of the desert.
Friday, October 30, 2015
The Incredible Shrinking Man!
I went to the doctor yesterday, and they checked my height and weight. I SHRANK!!! Another inch! You know what this means? It means that I just GAINED WEIGHT!!! I know, I know, life is not fair, but jeese, that's just not fair. My response? I put the bag of almonds on my lap, and ate, ate, ate. And then I ate a 40 gram carb chicken salad! So THERE!!
Today, again, I focus on the journey, not the destination, and do not despair. There is light at the end of the tunnel. There is water at the end of the desert.
Today, again, I focus on the journey, not the destination, and do not despair. There is light at the end of the tunnel. There is water at the end of the desert.
Wednesday, October 28, 2015
Another Motive for Losing Weight
I had a CT Scan last week because it's a new protocol to screen former heavy smokers for pre-cancer so prophylactic treatment can begin if warranted. Happily, I don't need pre-cancer treatment, but the test did reveal that i have "mild emphysema."
Why lose weight? Originally, there was all the stuff out there about how "everything is better when you're not fat." Then there's my recent problem of not being able to exercise to the extent "I used to." Then there's "Oh, you have asthma so lose weight to improve lung function." Now it's "You have mild emphysema so lose weight to improve lung function." Guess I'll continue to lose weight.
Interestingly, looking on the Internet (of course) for information about emphysema, I found new studies that show beta carotene can regenerate alveoli. Wow! So in an addendum to my ketosis diet, I will plan that all my carbs will come from beta carotene. This means sweet potatoes (yumm!), carrots, spinach, squash.
So...the Pumpkin Pie Pudding I made yesterday and ate for dessert today is PERFECT! Without the cream I have 11 grams of beta carotene, 6 grams fat, and 7 grams protein. The cream just adds to the perfection (and I can't tell you the number of times I've needed to drink a quarter cup of cream at night just to get the numbers right).
Why lose weight? Originally, there was all the stuff out there about how "everything is better when you're not fat." Then there's my recent problem of not being able to exercise to the extent "I used to." Then there's "Oh, you have asthma so lose weight to improve lung function." Now it's "You have mild emphysema so lose weight to improve lung function." Guess I'll continue to lose weight.
Interestingly, looking on the Internet (of course) for information about emphysema, I found new studies that show beta carotene can regenerate alveoli. Wow! So in an addendum to my ketosis diet, I will plan that all my carbs will come from beta carotene. This means sweet potatoes (yumm!), carrots, spinach, squash.
So...the Pumpkin Pie Pudding I made yesterday and ate for dessert today is PERFECT! Without the cream I have 11 grams of beta carotene, 6 grams fat, and 7 grams protein. The cream just adds to the perfection (and I can't tell you the number of times I've needed to drink a quarter cup of cream at night just to get the numbers right).
Tuesday, October 27, 2015
Out of Sight, Out of Mind
I left a bag of almonds on the kitchen counter, and every time I passed it, I took one or two. Good fat, I rationalized. Nevertheless, I put the bag into a cupboard and shut the door. Let me please CHOOSE when to eat that good fat!
Monday, October 26, 2015
Powers of 10
Last night I invited a friend to watch a movie with me in the living room. About half way though the movie (a very emotional film), I got up and counted out 10 almonds to snack on. A bit later I brought the bag to the couch and counted out 10 more. Then 10 x 2 more. Then 10 x 2 more. Then I gave up and just reached into the bag. Then I went and got a piece of cheese without measuring it. Then I ate more almonds.
I was binging.
Why? I haven't a clue. I know I'm a bit uncomfortable sitting in my living room, especially for an extended period of time. (Sorry to say [sounds very nuts and unhealthy] but I prefer to lie in bed.) Is that the reason? Also, a second friend came over and changed the dynamics of the 'party,' and that, too, made me a bit uncomfortable--I would have preferred that the dynamics remain unchanged. Humm, I don't deal well with...?? I need a shrink???
I DO know that there was some rationalization going on: Perlmutter and the other ketonic diet gurus all say basically "eat all the fat you want." Maybe my body needed more fat today?? I can't buy it. I always hesitate to keep almonds in the house because I'm too prone to just gobble them up. I suspect that if there hadn't been almonds, I would have cut some cheese--only because it's quick and easy. I would definitely NOT have been interested in grabbing some other things readily available such as grape tomatoes, cream, almond milk, hard boiled egg, kipper snacks, lettuce. A spoonful of almond butter has tempted me in the past.
Ooooh, something else was different! I changed my water! (Remember the ongoing search for a substitute for Chrystal Light?) I had just bought some lemon juice, hoping to flavor my water; but the fact is I didn't like it. (Maybe I should have put some stevia in it, but whatever: I didn't like it.) And I always drink that liquid like a dying person on the desert.
oK, so something learned: don't EVER face an evening without an acceptable beverage! I guess I use that beverage the same way I use the almonds?
I was binging.
Why? I haven't a clue. I know I'm a bit uncomfortable sitting in my living room, especially for an extended period of time. (Sorry to say [sounds very nuts and unhealthy] but I prefer to lie in bed.) Is that the reason? Also, a second friend came over and changed the dynamics of the 'party,' and that, too, made me a bit uncomfortable--I would have preferred that the dynamics remain unchanged. Humm, I don't deal well with...?? I need a shrink???
I DO know that there was some rationalization going on: Perlmutter and the other ketonic diet gurus all say basically "eat all the fat you want." Maybe my body needed more fat today?? I can't buy it. I always hesitate to keep almonds in the house because I'm too prone to just gobble them up. I suspect that if there hadn't been almonds, I would have cut some cheese--only because it's quick and easy. I would definitely NOT have been interested in grabbing some other things readily available such as grape tomatoes, cream, almond milk, hard boiled egg, kipper snacks, lettuce. A spoonful of almond butter has tempted me in the past.
Ooooh, something else was different! I changed my water! (Remember the ongoing search for a substitute for Chrystal Light?) I had just bought some lemon juice, hoping to flavor my water; but the fact is I didn't like it. (Maybe I should have put some stevia in it, but whatever: I didn't like it.) And I always drink that liquid like a dying person on the desert.
oK, so something learned: don't EVER face an evening without an acceptable beverage! I guess I use that beverage the same way I use the almonds?
Thursday, October 22, 2015
Dreaming of Sweets??
Last night I dreamed I was eating a wonderful piece of pie. I don't remember much except that it was mouth-watering, looked very sweet -- of course! This was scairy!!
Why? Because I suddenly realized that working on the down slope does not indicate that I have conquered binging.
Very scairy. I can say to myself that I recognize that I am a sugar-holic and can never eat that piece of pie again, but what will happen when I DO hit my goal? THAT will be the real challenge!!!!!!
Why? Because I suddenly realized that working on the down slope does not indicate that I have conquered binging.
Very scairy. I can say to myself that I recognize that I am a sugar-holic and can never eat that piece of pie again, but what will happen when I DO hit my goal? THAT will be the real challenge!!!!!!
Tuesday, October 20, 2015
I Hate Core Day
Several weeks ago I told Scott I wanted to increase my weight training, and to accomplish this I would do core day on my own, leaving two full sessions for him to work on legs and upper body. Yea!! Except that then I had to force myself to do it.
It's been very difficult. Talk about procrastination, wow. Originally I was supposed to do it on Mondays. Then I found myself postponing Wednesday to Thursday so I could do Monday on Tuesday, but didn't get it done until Wednesday. Get the picture? Plus someone stole the roll-out bar from the gym, and I haven't been able to find a suitable substitute for the lower abs. I tried a ball exercise, Swiss-Ball Jackknife -- looked so easy! but couldn't even get my ankles up there.
So today I decided to really work it. I succeeded in three full reps of 60 seconds on the wall squat holding 3# weights (supposed to be 5#, but I don't have those at home), four full sets, 12 reps each (as opposed to last week's three and 10) of Plank, ab Crunches, Leg Raises, and chest high Push-Ups. Then I tried the new Plank Row wearing socks. Disaster. Couldn't move at all. Maybe I'm tired? OK, I'll try again later.
It's been very difficult. Talk about procrastination, wow. Originally I was supposed to do it on Mondays. Then I found myself postponing Wednesday to Thursday so I could do Monday on Tuesday, but didn't get it done until Wednesday. Get the picture? Plus someone stole the roll-out bar from the gym, and I haven't been able to find a suitable substitute for the lower abs. I tried a ball exercise, Swiss-Ball Jackknife -- looked so easy! but couldn't even get my ankles up there.
So today I decided to really work it. I succeeded in three full reps of 60 seconds on the wall squat holding 3# weights (supposed to be 5#, but I don't have those at home), four full sets, 12 reps each (as opposed to last week's three and 10) of Plank, ab Crunches, Leg Raises, and chest high Push-Ups. Then I tried the new Plank Row wearing socks. Disaster. Couldn't move at all. Maybe I'm tired? OK, I'll try again later.
Saturday, October 17, 2015
Supplements and Additives?
I'm a rule follower. So when Perlmutter said "get these supplements" and "eliminate the additives," I did my best. The first time I "did Perlmutter" I bought cod liver oil and probiotics per his insistence. And I cleaned out my kitchen--no more pasta, no more bread, no more anything with ingredients. My kitchen is still everything Perlmutter would want. For example, I always have olive oil and coconut oil and nuts and avocados, olives, a variety of cheese, couple pints of heavy cream. (BTW, even at Whole Foods it's impossible to buy a quart of cream or any cottage cheese made from whole milk, and there's only ONE vendor/size of whole milk plain Greek yogurt!) It's even fun to try various cheeses that I've never, ever had before, yummmy. And who would believe that you could DRINK a half cup of heavy cream and like it!
It was also pretty easy to eliminate additives. I mean, heck, if you're "going back to basics," you don't use anything with ingredients. I bought a huge package of Steevia, and no problem Jose.
However, I still struggle with the water. Water around here just doesn't taste good, so I have been drinking Chrystal Delight for yearrrrrrs. It's difficult to drink a gallon of water a day, and Chrystal Delight made it easy. So, I tried buying a bunch of different "steevia flavored drops." Ick. Double Ick. I tried squeezing a lemon into my gallon of water. Now, that would work, but I'd have to buy a dozen lemons at a time. Nevertheless, I'm keeping this solution on the back burner. My latest aquisition was an order of unsweetened flavor drops from Capella Flavors (http://www.capellaflavors.com/). With shipping costs, it was not cheap, but if it works out, I can buy bulk quantities.
It was also pretty easy to eliminate additives. I mean, heck, if you're "going back to basics," you don't use anything with ingredients. I bought a huge package of Steevia, and no problem Jose.
However, I still struggle with the water. Water around here just doesn't taste good, so I have been drinking Chrystal Delight for yearrrrrrs. It's difficult to drink a gallon of water a day, and Chrystal Delight made it easy. So, I tried buying a bunch of different "steevia flavored drops." Ick. Double Ick. I tried squeezing a lemon into my gallon of water. Now, that would work, but I'd have to buy a dozen lemons at a time. Nevertheless, I'm keeping this solution on the back burner. My latest aquisition was an order of unsweetened flavor drops from Capella Flavors (http://www.capellaflavors.com/). With shipping costs, it was not cheap, but if it works out, I can buy bulk quantities.
Friday, October 16, 2015
My name is Camille, and I'm a sugar-holic
I don't have any problem passing on the sweets because I finally accepted the fact that I'm a sugar-holic who can't have just one...so I can never have even one.
One scoop tastes great. I want to continue to enjoy that great feeling, but to do that requires continually eating more scoops. Sugar-holic.
The solution is my great imagination. I can remember that taste! I've practiced, and I really can bring to mind anything I've eaten. I figure there's nothing that I haven't already tasted, so I don't have to have anything any more; I only need to remember the taste.
Food is now only something I ingest to avoid that uncomfortable feeling of hungar. Sound boring? Too bad. Look what I've accomplished in the last 90 days!!
One scoop tastes great. I want to continue to enjoy that great feeling, but to do that requires continually eating more scoops. Sugar-holic.
The solution is my great imagination. I can remember that taste! I've practiced, and I really can bring to mind anything I've eaten. I figure there's nothing that I haven't already tasted, so I don't have to have anything any more; I only need to remember the taste.
Food is now only something I ingest to avoid that uncomfortable feeling of hungar. Sound boring? Too bad. Look what I've accomplished in the last 90 days!!
Friday, October 9, 2015
Lost 25#
Weighed in at 195#, so my friend Bob gave me $100 today. He's going to give me $100 for every 10 pounds I lose.
I just keep pluggin' away, modifying the percentages, lowering protein--then I get hungry...moving carbs to lunch.
Added 300 calories to my day giving mef 1500 which still doesn't account for all the calories I'm working off in exercise, but I don't trust those calorie counters. Anyway, I'm doing ok. As my trainer says, "It's the journey." I'm focussed on August, 2016.
I just keep pluggin' away, modifying the percentages, lowering protein--then I get hungry...moving carbs to lunch.
Added 300 calories to my day giving mef 1500 which still doesn't account for all the calories I'm working off in exercise, but I don't trust those calorie counters. Anyway, I'm doing ok. As my trainer says, "It's the journey." I'm focussed on August, 2016.
Thursday, October 1, 2015
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